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Another night, another dotted line...I sign my heart away to you. Some call it foolish, guess I'll call it art. . . 🖤 @coach.cookie 🖤 . 📸 @michellelacsonphotography . . #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #couplegoals #powercouple #fitness #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #npcbikini #strong

Y'all just wait until this waist comes in... . . . @coach.cookie how's your client doing? 😘 . . #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #npcbikini #npc #nutrition #personaltrainer #musiccity #nashvilletn #fitfam #fitcouple #bootygoals

After Core City today I should have had a waffle, but I still have a 🥞 😂! Those runs though! 🔥💦🏃‍♀️#partnercorecity #burnbootcamp #burnbootcampsarasota #fitat67 #keepmoving #stopstartingover #wafflescoming #killedbykayla #myhappyplace

If you told me last year that this is where I would be today I would laugh in your face. Today I called my husband @coach.cookie after work to small talk about our day. Less than 10 minutes later my phone rang and it was him again. He said he just wanted to say "I love you, beautiful." one more time before I got to the gym. Our relationship is far deeper than most and I'm so thankful for what I've learned from him. We've literally shared blood, sweat, and tears and it's only made us stronger. I told you 2019 was gonna be a big year...xoxo . . 📸 @furiousfotog . . #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #powercouple #couplegoals #fitness #girlswholift #strong #fitfam #fitcouple #bodybuilder #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #bikini #npcbikini #romance #npcbikini

That’s what i told myself today.. Felt like staying in bed instead of getting up at 5AM to workout but i got up anyway, knowing that if didn’t get up to get sweaty i would feel like a quiter all day long.. So i got up and got #killedbykayla 😜😅💪 Quote inspired by @veganbossladyofficial #neverquit #dontgiveup fitspo #fitspiration #gymmotivation #fitnessmotivation #bbgmotivation #bbgmom #bbgcommunity #kaylasarmy #motivationalquotes #positivequotes #blackandwhite #monochrome #gymquotes #fitnessquotes #bbgquotes #fitquote #getfit #fitnotskinny #happinessquotes #funnyquotes #workout #sweat #workoutmotivation #workoutinspiration #weightloss #weightlossjourney #getfitjourney #getfit #fitnotskinny

#repost @cookie_cuts ・・・ Online training and nutrition is something that I have actually been working on developing for years now. Its one thing to have a general plan and the knowledge to back something up. But, it’s a completely different thing to have experience and failure to help you perfect something. That’s why I’ve kept my online clientele very limited. I absolutely hate offering a product that I’m not 100% about. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ By keeping my online clientele smaller, that’s allowed me the time and energy to make sure that I’ve been able to deliver a solid product I can be proud of until I was able to expand my knowledge and programming to the point where I felt comfortable enough to build my online clientele. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ After a few years of trial and error, carpal tunnel inducing research lol, and learning from other coaches who’ve reached the level I am striving for, I am very happy and proud to announce that I feel like I’ve reached the point where I can begin increasing my online clientele and hopefully start decreasing my in person sessions. With that being said, I am currently offering a one time online training and nutrition special!! ▫️ ▫️ Anyone who commits to 12 weeks of online training will receive a 50% discount!! This special is only valid until September 15th. Then my normal rates will be increasing. I have never and will never offer online training at a rate even close to this!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ve said this a thousand times but I’ll say it again, I couldn’t begin to effectively work on my car much less cut my own hair, so I pay someone to do those and many other things that I don’t have sufficient knowledge of. Sure, I could def cut my own hair. But I wouldn’t be asked to many photo shoots lol. Then of course I could pay $20 for something mediocre. If I want to look mediocre. So I choose to pay about $50, because It really helps my confidence and self esteem and it’s a much better overall experience. But that means I can’t spend as much in other areas of my life. If you want to look and feel mediocre, pay mediocre rates for “just enough”. If you want the best for your mind and body, you have to pay more, which means you have to sacrifice.

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Online training and nutrition is something that I have actually been working on developing for years now. Its one thing to have a general plan and the knowledge to back something up. But, it’s a completely different thing to have experience and failure to help you perfect something. That’s why I’ve kept my online clientele very limited. I absolutely hate offering a product that I’m not 100% about. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ By keeping my online clientele smaller, that’s allowed me the time and energy to make sure that I’ve been able to deliver a solid product I can be proud of until I was able to expand my knowledge and programming to the point where I felt comfortable enough to build my online clientele. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ After a few years of trial and error, carpal tunnel inducing research lol, and learning from other coaches who’ve reached the level I am striving for, I am very happy and proud to announce that I feel like I’ve reached the point where I can begin increasing my online clientele and hopefully start decreasing my in person sessions. With that being said, I am currently offering a one time online training and nutrition special!! ▫️ ▫️ Anyone who commits to 12 weeks of online training will receive a 50% discount!! This special is only valid until September 15th. Then my normal rates will be increasing. I have never and will never offer online training at a rate even close to this!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ve said this a thousand times but I’ll say it again, I couldn’t begin to effectively work on my car much less cut my own hair, so I pay someone to do those and many other things that I don’t have sufficient knowledge of. Sure, I could def cut my own hair. But I wouldn’t be asked to many photo shoots lol. Then of course I could pay $20 for something mediocre. If I want to look mediocre. So I choose to pay about $50, because It really helps my confidence and self esteem and it’s a much better overall experience. But that means I can’t spend as much in other areas of my life. If you want to look and feel mediocre, pay mediocre rates for “just enough”. If you want the best for your mind and body, you have to pay more, which means you have to dedicate and sacrifice more.😘🍪

People get mad about the fact that I can’t keep anything inside. If I don’t like you you’ll know. Because I’ll probably talk shit. And that’s something I am desperately working on. But, let me ask all of you something - how many of you have proceeded to talk shit behind someone’s back after they talked shit to your face? ▫️ Please read that twice. You get mad about someone telling you something they don’t like about you or about something you’ve done, so you proceed to say negative things about that person behind their back. Instead of allowing them the opportunity to grow and learn, instead you prevent them from furthering themselves bc you spread negative things about them to people who may not even know them. So they make assumptions based on the little piece of information you give them. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ve made a shit Ton of mistakes in my life. I regret more things than I am proud of honestly. And a lot of you know me based on the mistakes I’ve made. Rather than how much I’ve grown and improved and how many lives I’ve touched. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So, one more time - would you rather someone tell you something they don’t like to your face? So that you can improve. Or behind your back? So that you maintain your ignorance, but others around you do not. Don’t over complicate it. Answer the question. Then treat others the way you wish to be treated. I’m just as guilty of it at times, but do we all really want to lead with hate rather than love? 😘🍪▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ @_tylorgentry @ambitionthreadsco ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

@burnbootcampsarasotafl is my happy place. Even when I’m a sweaty hot mess, I feel my best! All the worlds problems just fade away when you’re busting your butt. Helluva workout today ladies! 💪 #killedbykayla #burn #burnbootcamp #fitness #badass

The best part of me will always be you. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️😍 @killerkaylarae ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @michellelacsonphotography ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

🔥 ANNOUNCEMENT 🔥 . . After getting multiple inquiries during my competition prep I've finally decided to accept clients and will be training under our business @cookie_cuts ❤ I've been in fitness now for over 6 years and would love to work with you! . . Why hire a trainer that hasn't been able to achieve their own goals? You'll be training with me while I'm preparing for my national show in November, let's kick butt together! I currently have openings every Saturday. DM me for details. . . #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #strongwomen #strong #girlswholift #fitness #personaltrainer #nutrition #powercouple #goals #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #npcbikini #npcphysique #bodybuilder #bodybuilding

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2019-08-14 11:39:42

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ Left - March 2019 ... Right - August 2019. ▫️40 pounds lost in that time frame!!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ This is my amazing online client @gmgfishman . She’s been doing online nutrition with me since this first picture was taken. That means I’ve had zero control over her training and cardio, only her nutrition. Does this prove to you that nutrition is 95% of what it takes to transform your body?? Here is her testimonial about working with us the last 5 months - ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ If you are looking for a trainer who treats you as an individual,not just a client in a Rolodex, look no further than David "Cookie" Cook. I was leery hiring a remote nutrition coach, but I swear. Cookie treats his remote clients as if we were training in the same room. He is responsive, thorough, thoughtful and "gets it" because he has "been there, done that". I gained so much by working with him, and I will forever be grateful I said "okay, where do we begin". ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I don’t push my online training and nutrition as often as most trainers because I hate where online training has gone in the last few years. So many people are used to cheap prices and a cheap product. It’s insane to me that people think that they can pay $50 a month to completely transform their body and erase years of unhealthy habits and routines. This isn’t just about changing your body, but also your mind. And that is why most fail. They fail to realize the reality of what it actually takes to live a healthier lifestyle. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ With my online training and or nutrition I give a much different product than most. And that’s why I’m broke haha. I could be making a lot more money if I used an app and charged low prices and sent all of my clients the same workout and diet. You’ve all seen evidence of the success that kind of a business can bring a coach. But does it bring that same level of success to all of their clients? Usually, no. There’s little to no accountability. And even less room for making adjustments based on each individual. Since we are ALL individuals. Which mean we all need different things to incite change. That requires time and money. Not gimmicks or deals.

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2019-08-12 07:36:20

What does everyone think @killerkaylarae is thinking In this first pic? hahaha. Jeeze I love her 😍. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We had such an amazing time at @danidfitness1 @find_your_fit_festival in Nashville Friday night! It’d been a while since I’d been on the mic like that since I’ve been focusing a lot more on private and online training, but man do I love being lucky enough to get invited to do these kinds of classes! Much love to Dani D for putting these events on. If you missed Friday don’t worry! We’ll be teaching again at her second event in Franklin around 10am! Event starts at 730am so come out and see us!! I’ll still be teaching my normal boxing class at @franklinstrength but it’ll be at 7am this week only! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ If only more people in fitness focused on collaboration over competition like Dani D. Spread love guys ❤️🍪. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @annettekmcnamara ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

🔥Sneak peek 👀 into tomorrow’s partner leg day with some plyo thrown in! 😱 🙋🏽‍♀️Who’s coming tomorrow and is super pumped?!💪🏼 Come get ⬇️ #killedbykayla #jackedbyjeanette #krushedbykatelyn

Starting this weekend off right. Sweaty and buff. Dragged the husbands along before they go to work too. Not sure they will ever be the same 🤣🤣💪💪. Only 25 spots left for the Commit2Fit, 6 week challenge people! If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you! 👇 #burnbootcampsarasota #commit2fit #killedbykayla #burnitout #isurvived https://burnbootcamp.com/commit-2-fit/

As a coach, it can be a very difficult thing emotionally when clients don’t see the results they want and pay good money for because I’m not cheap lol. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how or why one client will see results, while another client at a similar age/ weight/ sex/ frequency of workouts etc won’t. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Nutrition is obviously without a doubt the main cause for this, but it can’t be the only factor. Let’s be clear though - everyone is an individual and cannot and should not compare themselves to others or expect the exact same results as anyone else. Even if training and diet is exactly the same. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The term that keeps replaying in my mind when I notice those who see results, compared to those who don’t, is effort. The amount of effort one puts toward their session. If you’re a regular at the gym, you’ve noticed those people that have showed up and stayed consistent for years, but they look exactly the same as the day you first saw them right? Yet, there are also those people that look like a completely different person since they started lifting. So what’s the difference? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ It’s simple honestly. The person who changes approaches each workout as an opportunity to better themselves. They show up excited to forget the world and lift for an hour or two. While those who don’t change show up in an attempt to go through the motions. To get a workout in in the least amount of time possible with the least amount of effort exerted. It still amazes me when people want to look different and have the body of their dreams, but they half ass the entire workout they’re spending their time and money on. Then they get frustrated they haven’t changed. So what do a lot of you do in that position? You assume it’s the workout or the trainer and quit all together. As if doing less will get you more out of life. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ If you want to change or improve your body. You have to work for it. You have to show up with the right mindset and you have to put the EFFORT in dude. That doesn’t mean you have to be Superman and always be perfect. But, you do need to do your best. Don’t forget how powerful we are all capable of being.

Cookie Cuts
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2019-08-07 12:41:19

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ Cookies back to school special!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So much love to everyone who helped and supported our Suicide Prevention fundraiser this weekend! ▫️ ▫️ But, now it’s time to get serious and make some waves in peoples lives in a slightly different way than we did this weekend. I’ve preached many times about how fitness has saved my life. But it hasn’t just kept me alive, it’s progressively helped me better my life. It keeps me energetic, healthy, happy, it helps with my confidence and self esteem issues, curves my depression and anxiety, it clears my mind to help me focus on what’s important, it’s bettered all of my relationships and helped me form many incredible new ones including my beautiful wife. The list could theoretically be infinite. As I grow as a person and a man, I discover new amazing ways that it improves many aspects of my life as that growth occurs. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ That’s why I chose a career in fitness. I want to help show others how fitness can improve all aspects of their life. Not only make them physically look better. If they let it. That doesn’t mean it’ll be easy or quick. But what in life worth having comes without a fight? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ For the remainder of August, all new clients who sign up for a package will receive 2 free sessions and a free nutrition consult (valued at over $200). We’ll be increasing our prices September 1st, but anyone who signs up before then will be locked into a cheaper rate!!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ At @cookie_cuts we offer in person personal training - online training - and online or in person nutritional coaching. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @scarbine ▫️▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Cookies back to school special!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So much love to everyone who helped and supported our Suicide Prevention fundraiser this weekend! ▫️ ▫️ But, now it’s time to get serious and make some waves in peoples lives in a slightly different way than we did this weekend. I’ve preached many times about how fitness has saved my life. But it hasn’t just kept me alive, it’s progressively helped me better my life. It keeps me energetic, healthy, happy, it helps with my confidence and self esteem issues, curves my depression and anxiety, it clears my mind to help me focus on what’s important, it’s bettered all of my relationships and helped me form many incredible new ones including my beautiful wife. The list could theoretically be infinite. As I grow as a person and a man, I discover new amazing ways that it improves many aspects of my life as that growth occurs. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ That’s why I chose a career in fitness. I want to help show others how fitness can improve all aspects of their life. Not only make them physically look better. If they let it. That doesn’t mean it’ll be easy or quick. But what in life worth having comes without a fight? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ For the remainder of August, all new clients who sign up for a package will receive 2 free sessions and a free nutrition consult (valued at over $200). We’ll be increasing our prices September 1st, but anyone who signs up before then will be locked into a cheaper rate!!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ At @cookie_cuts we offer in person personal training - online training - and online or in person nutritional coaching. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @scarbine ▫️▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Many people came together this Saturday to help make our Suicide Prevention Fundraiser a success. I’m extremely thankful and humbled by all of you. But, without this beautiful woman, Saturday would have never happened. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ There aren’t many adjectives that feel like they accurately describe the way I feel about my gorgeous wife. She helped organize this entire fundraiser, while working a full time job. Everything from the volunteers, silent auction, trainers, musicians, sponsors etc. While keeping me from losing my shit over the stress and anxiety I felt related to this event. I never knew that people like her even existed. I doubt that I’ll ever see in myself what she sees in me. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ This event was actually a huge success!! Only @killerkaylarae truly knows what that means to me. And that’s one of the only reasons she worked her ass off to make this as big as it was. Lucky, blessed, grateful, humbled, thankful, in love, obsessed - doesn’t even begin to express the way I feel about getting to spend the rest of my life with this amazing woman. ❤️🍪. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So much love to everyone who came together to make this event a reality. Keep fighting and keep making others uncomfortable, until we create the change that so many of you proved you desperately want this weekend. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @lirazphotography 🔥🔥 dm me to purchase a gift card for this photographer as one of our final donations! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Last Saturday was our Second Annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser! ▫️ @afspnational ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I don’t even know where to start. We began the day with a flash mob of all things put on by one of our speakers @brittsongs . This ended up being amazing, and definitely set the tone for the rest of the afternoon. ▫️ ▫️ Then my beautiful wife @killerkaylarae spoke. Absolutely none of this would have happened without her. Trust me lol it wouldn’t have. I didn’t know what she planned on saying, but it took everything in me to not start balling like a baby. She’s truly an amazing woman ❤️🍪. Then @adaramusic @kendall.crane @brittsongs and my father all gave absolutely amazingly genuine speeches. If we’d ended after the speeches, I seriously would’ve been happy with it. So much love to those amazing people for being so real about such a taboo subject. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We then moved onto the workout and live music. We were so lucky to get @benjaminposs @sethbunting and @brittanybishopmusic who all came out to support us last year as well! These three agreed with no questions, they donated their time and promoted the event. Franklin Strength @franklinstrength coaches @chrisc1077 @copernicus_johnson and owner @clayrogers34 led the first portion of our workout. Followed by @danidfitness1 Who taught her Move Fit class. Then we finished with a short yoga session led by Franklin Strength owner @acmorales . ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So much love to all of our vendors who donated their time and products/ gift cards to help with our silent auction. @defiancefuel @nutritionfaktorycoolsprings @pacelinept @nobaked @ancientnutrition @lazo.photo @lirazphotography @ambitionthreadsco @nutrifittlabs @restore_cryo_brentwood @cleanjuicebrentwood @cleanjuicegulch @psfscoolsprings @franklinstrength @nashvillefit ▫️ ▫️ if I missed anyone plz dm me! ❤️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, most importantly, this event literally wouldn’t have been possible without all of you who donated and or came out! We’re still finalizing some of the silent auction and cash donations, but it looks like we definitely beat our $4,000 goal! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Words can of express what this meant to me. So thank you. Sincerely. From the bottom of my heart ❤️.

Cookie Cuts
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2019-08-02 10:51:41

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ It’s takes a lot of courage to attempt suicide, but it takes significantly more to live. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Life is fucking hard dude. I doubt any of you would argue that. We all question ourselves and our purpose even if we don’t question whether life is worth living or not. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Tomorrow is our Second Annual Fundraiser for Suicide Prevention. It’s at Noon at @franklinstrength in Cool Springs. We’ll have speakers, live music with @sethbunting @brittanybishopmusic @benjaminposs @adaramusic , vendors ( including @defiancefuel @nobaked @nutrifittlabs @nutritionfaktory @ambitionthreadsco And many more!), a silent auction with over 2k worth of local merchandise and gift cards, and a 90 min workout beginning with a 45min strength and conditioning workout with Franklin Strength Coaches @copernicus_johnson @chrisc1077 and @clayrogers34 , followed by a 20 min Move Fit class with @danidfitness1 , then we’re finishing with 20min of yoga led by @acmorales . ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ If you truly want to sit on your hands and accept life the way it is, you’re more than welcome to. While there are many amazingly beautiful aspects to life, there’s also a lot of bullshit. Especially surrounding mental illness. I’m not sure how many of you are able to just brush the bullshit under the rug so easily. I’d rather appreciate the beauty, and fight to change the bullshit. If you’re ready to fight. Ready to make a change. Tomorrow can be your first step. I cannot change something this prevalent on my own. So please come out tomorrow. All the love guys ❤️🍪. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

It’s takes a lot of courage to attempt suicide, but it takes significantly more to live. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Life is fucking hard dude. I doubt any of you would argue that. We all question ourselves and our purpose even if we don’t question whether life is worth living or not. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Tomorrow is our Second Annual Fundraiser for Suicide Prevention. It’s at Noon at @franklinstrength in Cool Springs. We’ll have speakers, live music with @sethbunting @brittanybishopmusic @benjaminposs @adaramusic , vendors ( including @defiancefuel @nobaked @nutrifittlabs @nutritionfaktory @ambitionthreadsco And many more!), a silent auction with over 2k worth of local merchandise and gift cards, and a 90 min workout beginning with a 45min strength and conditioning workout with Franklin Strength Coaches @copernicus_johnson @chrisc1077 and @clayrogers34 , followed by a 20 min Move Fit class with @danidfitness1 , then we’re finishing with 20min of yoga led by @acmorales . ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ If you truly want to sit on your hands and accept life the way it is, you’re more than welcome to. While there are many amazingly beautiful aspects to life, there’s also a lot of bullshit. Especially surrounding mental illness. I’m not sure how many of you are able to just brush the bullshit under the rug so easily. I’d rather appreciate the beauty, and fight to change the bullshit. If you’re ready to fight. Ready to make a change. Tomorrow can be your first step. I cannot change something this prevalent on my own. So please come out tomorrow. All the love guys ❤️🍪. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @_cinema83 ▫️▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Cookie Cuts
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2019-08-01 06:46:14

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ It’s almost here! In just 3 days, August 3rd at 12pm @franklinstrength , is our second annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ll be honest, I hate planning events haha. Pretty much only because I’m not that great at it and I let the stress of it get to me too much at times. But, thanks to my amazing wife @killerkaylarae , this year is looking to be over 3x as big as last year! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I tell others all the time that the only way to grow and learn is to do things that make you uncomfortable. This whole process has made me extremely uncomfortable haha. But, when I’ve personally attended events like this in the past, there is absolutely nothing quite like it. To see dozens to hundreds of people all donating their time and money to support a cause that I’ve told myself a thousand times no one understands, is an extremely humbling experience. Lack of support and empathy is a big reason why I’ve attempted in the past. You see, not everyone will get you. I’ve had people literally cut me out of their life because I was depressed. And that’s made me very bitter. If you haven’t noticed at times haha. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The good news? More people have lived with mental illness than any of us realize. Whether it’s them personally or a loved one. But there’s this bullshit feeling of shame attached to mental illness. Which only makes it worse. So this post is to all of you who have seen me posting about this and want the love and support, but you’re worried about what others will think. Or what it’ll mean. I get it. I’ve been fired from jobs, not even allowed an interview, lost friends, family etc, all because I’m so open about my illness and my problems. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, imma tell you this and you may not like it - grow some and take control of your fucking life. Nothing changes if nothing changes. You will feel ashamed for the rest of your life if we don’t change societies view of mental illness. We will all suffer much more by hiding. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Let me ask you this? Do you believe that any problems humanity faces will ever stop being a problem if no one does or says anything? Well ... I’m Standing up for what and who I believe in... will you?

It’s almost here! In just 3 days, August 3rd at 12pm @franklinstrength , is our second annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ll be honest, I hate planning events haha. Pretty much only because I’m not that great at it and I let the stress of it get to me too much at times. But, thanks to my amazing wife @killerkaylarae , this year is looking to be over 3x as big as last year! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I tell others all the time that the only way to grow and learn is to do things that make you uncomfortable. This whole process has made me extremely uncomfortable haha. But, when I’ve personally attended events like this in the past, there is absolutely nothing quite like it. To see dozens to hundreds of people all donating their time and money to support a cause that I’ve told myself a thousand times no one understands, is an extremely humbling experience. Lack of support and empathy is a big reason why I’ve attempted in the past. You see, not everyone will get you. I’ve had people literally cut me out of their life because I was depressed. And that’s made me very bitter. If you haven’t noticed at times haha. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The good news? More people have lived with mental illness than any of us realize. Whether it’s them personally or a loved one. But there’s this bs feeling of shame attached to mental illness. Which only makes it worse. So this post is to all of you who have seen me posting about this and want the love and support, but you’re worried about what others will think. Or what it’ll mean. I get it. I’ve been fired from jobs, not even allowed an interview, lost friends, family etc, all because I’m so open about my illness and my problems. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, imma tell you this and you may not like it - grow some and take control of your life. Nothing changes if nothing changes. You will feel ashamed for the rest of your life if we don’t change societies view of mental illness. We will all suffer much more by hiding. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Let me ask you this? Do you believe that any problems humanity faces will ever stop being a problem if no one does or says anything? Well ... I’m Standing up for what and who I believe in... will you?

I’ve heard it said that beauty is when scars become art. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️😍 @killerkaylarae ▫️ ▫️📷 @jennywennypennypants ▫️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Meg
(@megssweats)

2019-07-26 18:44:01

You know those days when you’re like, “Being one with my couch really wouldn’t be so bad? Couches don’t have to pay taxes or move or do anything but be comfortable”? That was definitely me today. But I got my ass off the couch, put in the work, and I’m a better me for it. Trying one of @naptimekitchen ‘s recipe tonight (salsa verde chicken!) and trying to remind myself I move in 3 weeks so I should really help out future Megs by packing as present Megs.

Happy Friday!!!! KEEP BELIEVING YOURSELF!!! (The ‘B’ got cut off 😑) Get out there and crush your goals...everyday!!! #killedbykayla As always thanks for that extra push @kbehrmanfitness and all the Burn chicks that help motivate when you think you just don’t have it in you! @burnbootcampsarasotafl @burnbootcamp . . . . #flexitfriday #burnsarasot #burnbootcampsarasota #encourageothers #pushyourlimits #believeinyourself #keepmoving #stopstartingover #💙 #💪🏼 #semifit #minime #thiskid #hearther

Meg
(@megssweats)

2019-07-24 15:42:40

How do people work over their lunch break every day?! I had to do so to fit in my workout, and woof, my face was red as hell when I walked back into work. But happy I got a quick work out in so I can have a fun date night. All about balance!

I often wonder if everyone in my life would be better off without me. It honestly sucks that my mind works the way it does sometimes. Then again, a large reason that I’ve been successful and found such an amazing woman is due to the way my mind works. Growing up, one of my favorite shows was Monk. For those of you who do not know, Monk was a TV show about a homicide detective who suffered from many mental illnesses, most specifically OCD. He was an extremely gifted detective who managed to somewhat control his issues. Until his wife was murdered. He was fired from the police department shortly after for being what many could consider a “loose cannon”. After he lost the love of his life, then the career that gave him purpose, he didn’t leave his house for many years. The show begins years after his wife’s death with him attempting to do some consulting for homicide cases. His OCD is what makes him such an amazing homicide detective. But, its also what prevents him from truly living his life. He describes this phenomenon as “both a gift and a curse” During my childhood, I gravitated towards shows and movies like this. Shows where broken people can still make a difference. Where peoples problems help them become more. Help them be more. Because, throughout my life, my problems and issues have seemingly only ever caused me problems. Caused others problems. I had someone text me this morning and tell me how horrible of a person i am and that Kayla deserved better. I don’t deny that. I’ve always expressed how i don’t know why she’s with me because of how amazing she is. I wish that i could handle things like most people do. I wish that i didn’t self sabotage when I’m presented with a difficult situation. I wish that I didn’t feel the need to seek revenge when others hurt me. That is something that I am desperately working at improving and correcting. I regularly speak about how the problems I face will stay with me for the rest of my life. And it seems as though, to most, merely improving isn’t enough. Ive come incredibly far this year, but its only been a year since I last attempted suicide. Most seem to forget that fact

I don’t think I need a caption for this. But, just Incase I do - these two pictures are a year apart. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The picture on the left was taken a year ago. It was at the @musiccityfitexpo . I’ve been a vendor at all of them since they first began 3 years ago. I was 2 months post op from my knee. I was supposed to have a lot of help, but the girl I was with had just left me and my other “friends” bailed. So I had to carry hundreds of pounds of promotional stuff and protein pudding by myself from my parked car to my booth. Only @nutrifittlabs and the @musiccitystrongman helped me after noticing that no one else would. My beautiful wife @killerkaylarae came to see me to support me before we were dating, but she had no idea how much I was struggling. I had no idea how much she was either. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I attempted suicide two weeks after that picture was taken. One of you reading this could have helped me if you knew what to look for and what to say. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The picture on the right was from yesterday. This is what happy and healthy looks like. This is what happens when you find the love of your life and they help you work through your shit. This is how you can look when you stop giving two fucks about what unhealthy people think about you. We saw many people at the expo who have actively tried to end my business. And I did not give two shits. Because I’m happy and I’ve realized that I can do anything I fucking choose to if I’m trying to better myself and humanity. Everything I do is to help myself and others become happier and healthier. I don’t give a shit what happens to those who have hurt me. I don’t give a shit how successful I am or how much money I make, if I am making a difference. If I am helping keep others from feeling a lot of the pain I’ve felt much of my life. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So here’s to changing the world and living a happier and healthier life. Fuck haters and fuck anyone who gets in your way. That’s been a common thing I’ve told myself this year. Do you doubt it’s worked? 😘🍪 ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville

One of the hardest work outs to date! All for the #mda #betheirmuscle campaign. #killedbykayla and #almostpukedbutdidnt The board doesn't mention the three building laps! 🤯😭🔥 I did it because there are those that can't and wish they could! 💙💙💙

Cookie Cuts
(@cookie_cuts)

2019-07-19 16:51:35

So stoked about the @musiccityfitexpo this weekend! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Stop by and see us tomorrow and Sunday, June 20th-21st, 8am-5pm! And yes we’ll have over 400 samples of Cookies pudding!! But it may come at a small cost 😏🍪▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We will also have information on our Suicide Prevention Fundraiser August 3rd and will be accepting cash and online donations in person!! ▫️ ▫️ @nashvillefit ▫️ ▫️ @killerkaylarae ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

I still can’t believe that this amazingly beautiful woman is my wife. I truly can’t believe I found you @killerkaylarae 😍❤️🍪▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @jennywennypennypants ▫️▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Happy Flex it Friday...or...Fry-day! #killedbykayla @kbehrmanfitness at 5am #roostercrew! She was hyped up and full of it today!!! Loved it! We have missed you 💙 get out there and move today! #burnsarasota #burnbootcamp #fitnessfun #flexfriday #encourageothers #highfives #redfaced #keepmoving #stopstartingover #minime #happyfriday

This was my favorite little dudes first time sparring! I’ve seen countless grown men and women turn into giant babies the second they put headgear on and get tapped in the face. Getting punched in the face is far from the end of the world. Ask Trey 😘🤣. ▫️ ▫️ Trey is 10 years old... he doesn’t make excuses. He pushes through minor injuries and he shows up ready to learn. Not just ready to go through the motions. He looks forward to improving both physically and mentally. This is why he constantly improves. Because he’s consistently showing up and working hard. Both on his time and mine. Mindset. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I want you to think about this the next time you go to the gym or meet up with your trainer or coach. That there’s a ten year old leveling up and improving. While you’re possibly doing the bare minimum and complain about barely improving. If nothing changes. Nothing changes. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ @franklinstrength 💪🏿🍪 ▫️ @tewksbury21 ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Better days, are not so far away... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @jennywennypennypants ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️😍 @killerkaylarae ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

"They don't know what we've been through. They don't know about me and you..." . . 🖤 @coach.cookie 🖤 . 📸 @michellelacsonphotography . . #powercouple #swolemates #fitcouple #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bikini #bodybuilder #bikinicompetitor #npcphysique #npcbikini #npc #fitspo #personaltrainer #musiccity #nashvilletn

Dreams do come true. ▫️ ▫️ It’s been a dream of mine to go to Golds Gym Venice Beach since I first read The Encyclopedia of Bodybuilding by Arnold Schwarzenegger when I was 17years old. It was everything I expected it to be and more. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, that’s one of those dreams anyone can make happen with just a little bit of money. ▫️ ▫️ I’ve always dreamed of marrying my best friend. I’m a total romantic and always have been. But, that’s a dream that you cannot accomplish on your own. I truly began believing that I would never have that. And if I’d succeeded In giving up on life last year and many years in the past, then I wouldn’t have accomplished both of those goals and dreams in a 48hr period would I? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Dreams do come true. But only if and when you’re ready. Becoming ready means changing. It means growing. So why the fuck are you afraid of change again? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️😍 @killerkaylarae 😍▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Cookie Cuts
(@cookie_cuts)

2019-07-12 11:09:09

Here’s one of our volunteers for our Suicide Prevention Fundraiser August 3rd @brittsongs with a very incredible and real testimonial about her personal experience with mental illness and why she’s excited to be a part of this event. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I get it, everyone and their mom clicks the link on fb when it’s their birthday to attach some form of a fundraiser to their page. It makes it easy to write these kinds of things off. But, the thing about mental illness, is that we ALL know, have known or will know someone who suffers. Whether we realize it or not. One day it could be your child, your spouse, or your best friend. What are you going to do? What are you going to say to them? What will you have wished you’d said once you realize it’s too late? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ While this event is to honor those who have committed suicide. The main focus is obviously to prevent as many as we can from joining them. One way to accomplish this is to help support those that are suffering, but another is to help others understand how to support. I get daily messages about what to do. What to say. How to be there for the suffering. Coming to and supporting this event is one way you can help. A couple hours out of your Saturday could save someone’s life. Read that shit twice please. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

I would love to see you there! See this #repost below from @coach.cookie for more info! Link in my bio! ・・・ Please join us for our second annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser!! ▫️ ▫️ At Franklin Strength- @franklinstrength - 1886 General George Patton Drive. ▫️August 3rd at Noon ▫️ ▫️ We’ll start the afternoon off with speakers starting with yours truly 🍪 and I hate public speaking so you’re welcome lol. I’ll be discussing a few things that even I don’t feel comfortable posting about. ▫️ ▫️ Then we’ll have a 90 minute bootcamp style workout with a number of different training styles including a strength focused portion, Move Fit with @danidfitness1 , yoga and a couple other surprises 😏. ▫️ There will be a number of different vendors and sponsors including @nutrifittlabs @nashvillefit , @defiancefuel , @cleanjuicebrentwood , @nutritionfaktorycoolsprings , @ambitionthreadsco , @pacelinept , @iron_wolf_weightlifting , @nobaked , and many others!! ▫️ We’ll also have live music from local Nashville artists - and a silent auction!! A $30 donation is required either in advance or the day of to attend! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We are still accepting volunteers, musicians, donations for the silent auction, vendors, sponsors and of course donations towards the fundraiser. ▫️ ▫️ 100% of all donations are donated not only the profits. I take care of any extra expenses personally. So please help support this. It’s beyond important to us!! Much love guys!! ❤️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Just over a year ago I was laying on floor of my bathroom. I was less than a month post op from an emergency knee surgery. I’d fallen getting out of the shower. Physically, I was more than capable of getting back up. But, my mind told me I couldn’t. I wasn’t able to get a single razor out of the pack so I ripped it open. A dozen razor blades laid spread out on the bathroom floor around me. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I laid there clutching a single blade, crying uncontrollably. I wanted to die but I didn’t have the balls to slit my wrist. I never have. So I pressed the blade against my thigh and started slicing it open. Slow and deep at first until I lost control and started slicing as fast and as hard as I could. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ “I just can’t do this anymore” that’s what I repeated over and over while I dug the blade into my flesh. Over and over. Until my breathing slowed and I returned to reality. Covered in blood I had to crawl to the toilet to help lift myself up and clean and bandage my cuts. I’m sure that was a site. But no one saw. No one was there. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Alone, abandoned, broken, unwanted, unlovable, tortured, crazy, fucked up, failure, embarrassment, burden. Those words don’t even begin to express the way I felt in that moment. But this was a feeling I was very used to at this point. I grew up in pain and sorrow. This was my norm. As much as I’d tried to fake it and cover it up at times. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ One definition of the word norm is something that is usual, typical or standard. That was my norm. Then I got fed the fuck up and created new standards for my life. I changed what was typical or usual for me. I tell this story to show you that this is all ok. It’s ok to be fucked up. It’s ok to fall into that hole. What’s not ok is just accepting that that’s your norm. I have no doubt that I will fall down many more times in the future. But I’ll never accept it as it being “who I am” or that I’m destined to be that way. Which I believed the majority of my adulthood. That’s the amazing thing about life. God gave us the freedom of choice. You can choose to be fucked up. Or you can choose to change and grow from your fuck ups. Much love everyone ❤️🍪 ▫️ ▫️ 📷 @furiousfotog

#killedbykayla I had a blast being at the “trainers station” today. Like literally three other trainers were at my stations with me today so the payback was real 😈😍 “ten more secondsssss!!! Wooooo!!!! Twerk team!” Also my personal favorite “I’m like a buff chubby Care Bear!” I needed this workout. 😂😂😂😌

Cookie Cuts
(@cookie_cuts)

2019-07-10 15:21:30

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ Please join us for our second annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser!! ▫️ ▫️ At Franklin Strength- @franklinstrength - 1886 General George Patton Drive. ▫️August 3rd at Noon ▫️ ▫️ We’ll start the afternoon off with speakers starting with yours truly 🍪 and I hate public speaking so you’re welcome lol. I’ll be discussing a few things that even I don’t feel comfortable posting about. ▫️ ▫️ Then we’ll have a 90 minute bootcamp style workout with a number of different training styles including a strength focused portion, Move Fit with @danidfitness1 , yoga and a couple other surprises 😏. ▫️ There will be a number of different vendors and sponsors including @nutrifittlabs @nashvillefit , @defiancefuel , @cleanjuicebrentwood , @nutritionfaktorycoolsprings , @ambitionthreadsco , @pacelinept , @iron_wolf_weightlifting , @nobaked , and many others!! ▫️ We’ll also have live music from local Nashville artists - and a silent auction!! A $30 donation is required either in advance or the day of to attend! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We are still accepting volunteers, musicians, donations for the silent auction, vendors, sponsors and of course donations towards the fundraiser. ▫️ ▫️ 100% of all donations are donated not only the profits. I take care of any extra expenses personally. So please help support this. It’s beyond important to us!! Much love guys!! ❤️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Please join us for our second annual Suicide Prevention Fundraiser!! ▫️ ▫️ At Franklin Strength- @franklinstrength - 1886 General George Patton Drive. ▫️August 3rd at Noon ▫️ ▫️ We’ll start the afternoon off with speakers starting with yours truly 🍪 and I hate public speaking so you’re welcome lol. I’ll be discussing a few things that even I don’t feel comfortable posting about. ▫️ ▫️ Then we’ll have a 90 minute bootcamp style workout with a number of different training styles including a strength focused portion, Move Fit with @danidfitness1 , yoga and a couple other surprises 😏. ▫️ There will be a number of different vendors and sponsors including @nutrifittlabs @nashvillefit , @defiancefuel , @cleanjuicebrentwood , @nutritionfaktorycoolsprings , @ambitionthreadsco , @pacelinept , @iron_wolf_weightlifting , @nobaked , and many others!! ▫️ We’ll also have live music from local Nashville artists - and a silent auction!! A $30 donation is required either in advance or the day of to attend! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We are still accepting volunteers, musicians, donations for the silent auction, vendors, sponsors and of course donations towards the fundraiser. ▫️ ▫️ 100% of all donations are donated not only the profits. I take care of any extra expenses personally. So please help support this. It’s beyond important to us!! Much love guys!! ❤️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Right now I feel thankful. Thankful for my beautiful fucking wife who holds my hand when I’m screaming in pain about memories that just can’t seem to leave my mind. I am beyond thankful for the days I wakeup from horrible nightmares about my past and I see her smiling face staring back at me. I’m thankful for my beautiful wife. Who also happens to be a nationally qualified bikini model and soon to be a cover model. ▫️▫️ ▫️ I never knew that women like her existed. And if I did, I would’ve sworn to you that I didn’t deserve her. Didn’t deserve this. Didn’t deserve happiness. I still don’t believe I deserve her. But, for some fucking reason, she spends everyday telling me and showing me why and how I do deserve her. How I do deserve happiness. And for that no words can possibly express the way she makes me feel. No actions can possibly show her how important she is to me. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ @killerkaylarae I’m so in love with you and I can’t believe that you chose to spend the rest of your life with me. I don’t doubt that you’ll regret it one day lol. But I promise that anyone or anything that gets in the way of our happiness will find out what the fuck crazy really means. Don’t ever fucking forget how fucked up I am. I’ll gladly slit anyone’s throat that gets In the way of our happiness. 😘▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I love you baby. And I do not give two fucks how many times I’ve posted things like this or how cliche it is. This is my woman and I’m beyond fucking proud to call her my wife. So get used to it or fucking unfollow me. I’ll help you find the button if you can’t. Much love everyone. ❤️🍪 ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @scarbine ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

My lifts sure have changed since @coach.cookie took over my training for Nationals. I am so so proud of my progress, somewhat because of how hard I've been pushing myself, but mostly because I'm working the plan that my husband made just for me ❤ As much as this sounds like an advertisement, I'm just so proud that I know he puts the same amount of detail, knowledge, and customization into all of his clients. When you have a trainer that learns your weaknesses and strengths, whether they are your spouse or not, that really makes a different in an athlete's progress. If you are the 15th personal training client at a large corporate gym, you will not get the same quality or personalization. Rant over 😋 I cant wait to see what @cookie_cuts and I can do by November. Stay tuned 😘 . . . #bodybycookie #bodybuilder #powercouple #fitcouple #swolemates #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #npc #npcbikini #girlswholift #strong #musiccity #nashvilletn #fitfam #fitspo #nutrition #personaltrainer #killedbykayla

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. 1 John 4:16 . Read that twice, slowly ❤ God is in you and loves YOU ❤ . . 📸 @michellelacsonphotography . . #godislove #love #powercouple #fitcouple #swolemates #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bikinicompetitor #bodybuilder #npcphysique #npcbikini #npc #strong #personaltrainer #musiccity #nashvilletn #fitfam

😂😂😂😂😭 today was something else! #burnbootcamp #killedbykayla

Here’s a sample of My beautiful wife @killerkaylarae Glutes - focused Lower Body day. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ 1. BB Hip Thrusts 1 1/4 rep - 6 sets - 15/10/10/6/10/15. ▫️ 2. Deficit Sumo KB Deads - 4 sets of 15. ▫️ 3. Romanian Deads top half of motion w/ Pauses - 4 sets of 10. ▫️ 4a. Cable pull through - 4 sets of 12. ▫️ ▫️ 4b. Weighted Frog Pumps - 4 sets of 20/30/40/50. ▫️ ▫️ 5. Feet Elevated Glute Bridge - Banded- 2sets of 30. ▫️ ▫️ 6. Heel elevated goblet squats - constant tension, no lock out - 3 sets of 15. ▫️ ▫️ 7. Side lying extra range hip abduction - 2 sets of 30. ▫️ ▫️(Stole some of these from @laurensimpson and @coachmarkcarroll) ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ve been strength training for over 17 years and personal training for 13. It makes me really sad and pissed off that so many women buy into a lot of the bullshit surrounding the fitness industry now. I could go on for hours, ask my wife haha. There are no “secret” workout plans or videos, or apps, watches, bands, supplements, tricks, or workout styles. Your body doesn’t give a shit if you’re lifting in a rusty old gym or some fancy boutique studio. My advice? If you want to build a bikini body (aside from nutrition)- find a strength coach and lift heavy. My wife and I lift together as often as possible. Everything I do she does as well, before fucking long her legs are going to be stronger than mine 😂😂. She just has her workout plan and split catered to her goals, weaknesses, strengths etc. ▫️▫️ ▫️ Give it a shot, if you can keep up 😏, and let me know what you think!!! For the Bikini Body you don’t believe you can achieve - @cookie_cuts 🍪❤️. ▫️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

I have a lot of things to bitch and complain about today. I’m tortured daily by the memories of my past and fears of the future. But, I am really fucking sick of letting that bullshit ruin the present. Because trust me, I’m really fucking good at that. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ When others have threatened my happiness, I don’t let that shit last long. I’d literally stab anyone, including myself, in the neck if they hurt my beautiful wife or threatened our happiness. But what I’m ignorant to far too often is the way I let my fear and pain effect her. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I haven’t backed down from a fight yet. I’ve never tapped out or been knocked out. Life is just another, much longer fight. So, today I am going to be braver than my fears. Today I’m going to live in the moment and not let my pain effect me or hurt the ones I love. Today I am going to be thankful for the amazing life God and @killerkaylarae have given me. And ignore all the bullshit. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @michellelacsonphotography ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

It’s amazing how much different life can look and feel depending on who you have by your side... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Thank you for bringing color, love, acceptance and much much more back into my life baby ❤️😍 @killerkaylarae ▫️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @jennywennypennypants ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Here's a glimpse into my training for nationals with @coach.cookie and @cookie_cuts 🍪💪 We have been steadily increasing my calories and lifting heavy to get some growth all over, per feedback from the judges at my last show. I normally don't post this type of content so let me know what you think! Side note: body weight and low weight exercises will not grow your booty ladies! Don't fall for the 15 minute, at home workouts! . . 1. Heavy Deads, working up to my 1 rep max, then back down 2. Rack Deads 3. Glute Bridges 4. Laying Leg Curls (alt. option if you don't have the machine available) . . #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #swolemates #powercouple #personaltrainer #girlswholift #strong #bikinicompetitor #npcbikini #bikiniprep #npcphysique #npc #fitspo #fitness #musiccity #fitfam #nashvilletn

Left - 27 years old. On beta blockers for hypertension, sleeping pills for horrible insomnia, too much adderall for my ADD, can’t hold a job and obviously a relationship isn’t happening anytime soon lol. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Right - 31 years old. Off all prescription medications (with the approval of my psychiatrist and PCP). I still struggle with some insomnia and issues focusing due to my ADD, but fitness helps tire me out enough everyday to sleep at night and keeps my mind clear. Somehow i’m actually a fucking cover model now 😅. I have a somewhat successful business lol and just got married to the love of my life. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The picture on the left was taken before a sleep study I did about four years ago. It was a last resort for me. But when you only sleep three nights a week you’ll try just about anything. I drank half a bottle of vodka before going Into this test because I was so worried that I wouldn’t be able to sleep... you’re not supposed to drink before these obv lol. I remember taking this picture. I thought I’d hit rock bottom and then some, until I took this picture. Until you’ve felt so low that you want to die but you believe that you’re such a giant piece of shit u’ll probably fuck that up too and end up paralyzed or some shit, you don’t fucking know how lost people are capable of getting. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Absolutely no magic occurred in the last four years since this picture. Just a lot of hard work, sweat and a shit ton of blood and tears. More than I care to admit. I’ll be the first to tell you that finding a new way to live your life is really fucking hard. You’re going to question yourself daily. You’re going to cry. You’re going to tell yourself bullshit lies. And you’re going to give up a dozen times before ever getting close to reaching your goals. But, I can promise you that if you merely keep getting back up - then you’ll reach your goals and then some. I make a point to be real. Because fucking life is real bro. I mean 🙄. How the hell could you think that the time in between these two pictures was easy? ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ What I hope you take from this, is that change is inevitable. We change everyday. But, the good news? We choose who we change into.

Last night I finished work a little earlier than usual. So @killerkaylarae and I were able to go get sushi. I was in such a good mood all day because I was really excited about going. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ We had a perfect night honestly. It’s rare that I don’t have an amazing time doing just about anything with my love. We got home late because we picked up some ice cream and I wanted to smoke a cigar while she was getting ready for bed. When I was sitting outside I started listening to music. I have a playlist called sad songs. You see, I grew up sad. I spent the majority of my life feeling sad. It feels like more than a habit or part of my routine. It feels like it’s a part of me. Like it’s who I am. Even though I know that’s fucking bullshit.▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Regardless of how happy I become or how well my life is going, sadness is a part of me. It’s comfortable. And In a sick way it feels safe. - I started listening to some of the songs In my sad playlist while smoking a cigar at my new apt that I love with my amazingly loving wife in the next room, and I started crying. I can’t count how many times I’ve sat alone at night crying, wondering why the fuck I was bothering to stay alive when I couldn’t even begin to understand how to actually live. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ While loneliness and sadness feel comfortable and safe, since the thought of those emotions are much more appealing than some of the horrors life can bring at times, what have they ever brought my life?... fucking loneliness and sadness haha. Makes sense. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I may be many things, but I’m not fucking stupid. I have something and someone to fight for now. Someone to be better for... it didn’t take long for me to lock my shit up, turn off my phone, put out my cigar and go inside to make a bowl of fucking ice cream and get in bed with the love of my life. Seems like an easy decision right? That’s the problem that most don’t realize unless they suffer. Mental illness is a disease of the mind. Doesn’t it make sense that it can give you a skewed perception of reality? Our minds are the greatest enemy we will ever face... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @furiousfotog ▫️

Doctors don’t make you healthy. Teachers don’t make you learn. Trainers don’t make you fit. At some point, you will have to realize the hard truth. That your life is 100% your responsibility... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ 😍 @killerkaylarae 😍 ▫️ dm me to get a #bodybycookie ▫️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ @franklinstrength ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

I’ve been at the wrong place at the wrong time. ▫️ Chasing all the wrong things most of my life. ▫️ I’ve broke down and I’ve cried ▫️ I’ve been wrong about a million times. ▫️ I’ve been every kind of lost that you can’t find. ▫️ But, I got one thing right; you. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️😍 @killerkaylarae 😍▫️ ▫️ ▫️ 📷 @jennywennypennypants ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

Cookie Cuts
(@cookie_cuts)

2019-06-25 13:04:38

Come out August 3rd at Noon to @franklinstrength in cool springs for our second annual Cookie Camp for Suicide Prevention fund raiser!! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ There will be a 90 minute bootcamp style workout, live music, vendors, a silent auction, speakers and much more! The link to donate is in our bio!! A $30 dollar donation is required to attend! ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ please dm us if you would like to volunteer, be a sponsor, vendor, musician or if you want to donate something for the silent auction! 100% of all proceeds will be donated to the @afspnational . One donation, one person who sees your story about you going and supporting this cause, one life saved is worth one afternoon out of your day. Please repost this and tell your friends!!!! 🙏💪🏿🍪❤️▫️▫️ ▫️▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

"I don't ever want to wake up looking into someone else's eyes..." 🖤 @coach.cookie . . 📸 @jennywennypennypants . . #swolemates #fitcouple #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bodybuilder #npcphysique #npcbikini #bikinicompetitor #npc #strong #girlswholift #nashvilletn #musiccity

You cannot tell how sweaty I am, but @kbehrmanfitness can confirm 💦🔥#killedbykayla #mondayfunday

Today I am thankful for @coach.cookie ❤ The point of having a partner for life is knowing you have someone by your side no matter what and learning their needs...when to support them, when to kick their ass, what is most meaningful to them. David pushes me to be better, loves me, and supports me. Our relationship can be summed up in this photo, love each other and be willing to walk where you aren't supposed to 😉 . . 📸 @michellelacsonphotography . . #swolemates #fitcouple #strength #couplegoals #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bikinicompetitor #bodybuilder #npcphysique #fitfam #fitspo #californialove #musiccity #nashville #personaltrainer #npcbikini #npc

Cookie Cuts
(@cookie_cuts)

2019-06-22 12:03:21

#repost @coach.cookie ・・・ I’d rather make an impact than make money. I’d rather create a change than prevent it by being stubborn and prideful. As a society, we measure wealth and success in a much different way than I wish we would. Many people tell me they believe I am good person, well known, influential, motivational, successful, etc - merely because of the number of people who follow me. People who’ve never met me believe this because of social media alone. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ This picture very accurately describes what I view as success. This is Trey, one of my hardest working clients. His focus when he boxes is the reason the term “tunnel vision” was created imo. His 10th birthday is tomorrow. Instead of asking for presents, he’s having his friends donate to a charity. Instead of spending his hard earned money, he made his mom run him to a coin star so he could give me cash to donate to my Suicide Prevention fundraiser in August... the only thing I can think to say about that is - what the actual fuck? This 10 year old kid has his shit more together than most adults I know. Including myself. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I do not feel as though I deserve to be training any of my clients. At some point or another, every single one of them has been beyond understanding in the few instances when my mental illness gets the better of me. They all support not only my business, but me as a human being as well. My clients are my friends first, not fucking dollar signs. And I don’t give a shit how that may negatively effect my business or Income. At all. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️yes, making money is great and required in order to stay alive. But, it doesn’t make me feel alive. Today I felt alive when I opened Treys card. I’ve lived a large portion of my life being alive without actually living. Maybe some of y’all need to re-evaluate what “living” actually fucking means to you. 😘🍪 ▫️ ▫️checkout his sik @cookie_cuts hat!! 💪🏿🍪▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ❤️ @tewksbury21 ❤️▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #

I’d rather make an impact than make money. I’d rather create a change than prevent it by being stubborn and prideful. As a society, we measure wealth and success in a much different way than I wish we would. Many people tell me they believe I am good person, well known, influential, motivational, successful, etc - merely because of the number of people who follow me. People who’ve never met me believe this because of social media alone. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ This picture very accurately describes what I view as success. This is Trey, one of my hardest working clients. His focus when he boxes is the reason the term “tunnel vision” was created imo. His 10th birthday is tomorrow. Instead of asking for presents, he’s having his friends donate to a charity. Instead of spending his hard earned money, he made his mom run him to a coin star so he could give me cash to donate to my Suicide Prevention fundraiser in August... the only thing I can think to say about that is - what the actual fuck? This 10 year old kid has his shit more together than most adults I know. Including myself. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I do not feel as though I deserve to be training any of my clients. At some point or another, every single one of them has been beyond understanding in the few instances when my mental illness gets the better of me. They all support not only my business, but me as a human being as well. My clients are my friends first, not fucking dollar signs. And I don’t give a shit how that may negatively effect my business or Income. At all. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️yes, making money is great and required in order to stay alive. But, it doesn’t make me feel alive. Today I felt alive when I opened Treys card. I’ve lived a large portion of my life being alive without actually living. Maybe some of y’all need to re-evaluate what “living” actually fucking means to you. 😘🍪 ▫️ ▫️checkout his sik @cookie_cuts hat!! 💪🏿🍪▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ❤️ @tewksbury21 ❤️▫️ ▫️ #swolemates #realtalk #stopsuicide #mentalhealthawareness #cookiecuts #killedbykayla #bodybycookie #musiccityfit #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefit #nashville #nutritioncoach #california #goals #bodybycookie #bodybuilding #physique #prep #bikinicompetitor #bikini

How many of us have been hurt? Unappreciated, disrespected, abandoned, been judged, lied to, kicked when we’re down, talked shit to, made to feel unworthy and unwanted? Etc...▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’m pretty sure I can safely say that we all have experienced that and worse at one point in our lives. So tell me... why the fuck haven’t you learned how to deal with it? Haha. I can say that because I struggle with it daily. I’m way too sensitive and emotional at times and not feeling like I’m enough for someone or something literally crushes my heart. A gym I was at recently made me feel this way... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ What do you do when someone makes you feel that kinda of a stabbing pain in your heart? In the past, anyone who’s fucked me gets fucked. I’ve literally nearly ruined my life In order to merely get revenge. I still struggle with this. It’s very hard for me to not say what I think and feel and then act on it. While at times, talking about it and allowing yourself to feel it is a very healthy way of dealing with negative emotions. But, it’s not if you can’t express it in a healthy and constructive way and end up hurting yourself... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ The situation with the gym that I touched on earlier still keeps me up some nights. My beautiful wife still has to talk me down when I get to ranting about it. But, one thing I’ve been reminding myself of is that I am positive that I genuinely do not want those people in my life. And what’s funny about that is that they saved me from having to deal with their toxicity and misguided values. Without them making that decision for me, I probably wouldn’t have because I believe in and trust people way too much at times and that prevents me from seeing the harsh reality of some situations ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, as you may expect, trying to be the bigger man (keyword try lol) and making the most out of a difficult situation has kept my life intact. When in the past I would have hurt myself to hurt the people who I believed hurt me. While all that’s ever done is brought me pain and sorrow... ▫️ ▫️ ▫️📷 @furiousfotog 🔥🔥

Finally felt tightened up today for the first time after vacation. Here's the reality of vacation...@coach.cookie and I basically ate and drank whatever we wanted when normally on a trip we would track and at least hit our macros. But we knew this trip was a celebration and time to relax! What we didnt do is let it turn into a month or two of the same thing when we got home. I'm down about 6-8 pounds already just from getting back on track this week! Now it's time to get to work for my nationals prep and grow these legs and glutes! . . . #swolemates #bodybycookie #killedbykayla #bodybuilder #bikiniprep #bikinicompetitor #npcbikini #npcphysique #npc #powercouple #nashvillefit #fitcouple #musiccity #nashvilletn #nashvillefitgames

This morning, after my first few clients I called my beautiful wife while she was on her way to work. Halfway through the conversation she said, “I wore my sleeveless dress today so I can flex on em in my meeting at the Capitol.” 😂😍. Everyday she reminds me that I am the luckiest man in the world. 🙏🍪❤️. ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ Monday it had been a week since we got married. It only took one week for my anxiety to get the best of me. Getting married and having that kind of a connection and trust in another is something I’ve been praying for for quite a while. To the point that I was beginning to believe my life was destined for sorrow and pain. Somehow @killerkaylarae has given me that. I don’t believe that I’ll ever deserve it.▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ I’ve had a hard enough time supporting myself throughout most of my adulthood. Mainly due to breakdowns. When my heads clear I’m smart, successful and driven. But, when my mental illness gets the best of me I’m a much different person. Even doing the things I love like training and lifting don’t get me out of bed. So it’s safe to say that working and hustling take a back seat during those moments. This is something I’ve gotten a decent handle on this year, but it still comes in waves at times. This week it really hit me that now I’m no longer only responsible for myself, but also Kayla. That she looks to me to be stable and strong. To be there when she needs her husband. My life has never really mattered much to me. When I get like that I truly don’t give a fuck, bc ruining my life has actually been something I’ve actively attempted to do at times. But, the thought of hurting Kayla, or not being who and what she needs scares the fuck out of me. So, don’t get me started on how Fucking scared I am of not being the father my children need.▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ But, it’s no secret that I love proving motherfuckers wrong. Especially myself. I may be a lot of things, but a piece of shit husband and father are two things that I will absolutely never be. So if you doubt me, please let me know. I could use a little air on my flame. 😂▫️ ▫️ ▫️ ▫️ So, here’s to not fucking giving up. I’ve lost too much and I’m sure many of you can say the same.